LOVE AND DEATH

belliwether

LOVE AND DEATH
      
         ——For Yulu, a strange woman to me, a myth

it rained in the midnight
you have gone, lost in the mist
it is nearly winter now
sky is as ashy as smoke

20 years ago, we were both young
especially you, you were completely healthy then
but i have been sick with cirrhosis for long
i knew my destiny before we met
  
we were classmates, we were lovers
lovers always want more, lovers always care about less
i was born in Harbin, a cold place
you were born in Yangzhou city
a place as warm as your heart

we finally got married
because you deserted your parents
i was on the edge of great DEATH
i thought he would at most give me 10 years
i never thought he would be so generous

but you have died
LOVE is the truth of your life
but mine is the great DEATH
i still want sexual love
i still fear being alone
sorry my darling, sorry my tender
i am still a tragedy you never cure